Face

There’s a face in the window

Of the building across the street

 

It’s abandoned — the building

Not the face

But perhaps it is too

Vacant

Pallor

No eyes

Sitting under the glow of a red exit sign

 

At night when I go for a glass of water

I see it in peripheral

It doesn’t move

I wave

Go back to bed

Can it see me too?

 

Where did its eyes go?

Maybe that was them

In the basement of that old house

We lived in for a year

They sat on a desk

Eyelashes

Dust flecks

Like a baby doll’s

Look

 

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Eating a Man Alive

I would start at the head
Swallow whole
Choke past it
Muffled screams
After that it is easier
Now it’s just time
And patience
Letting the body do its work
Don’t be hasty
Savor it
How you can still eat more
How you are nowhere near full
How the screaming has stopped
When you are done be sure to run
Stay in movement
Better for digestion
It won’t be long
Before you get hungry again
You could always run longer

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A Persistent Winter

Train delayed
Fog on scratched windows
People shift their feet
I loosen my scarf some
Settle into my seat
Ground myself through observations
Two girls eating lemon pies
The crumbles tumble down
Their black dresses
Yellow sticky fingers
The smell of hasty disinfectant
And a cologne I can’t place

I make mental calculations
Only one more week
I look forward to the time
When buildings will give way to trees
I will be barefoot on wet pavement
The smell of dirt salt and pepper
Cigarette smoke
I bite the inside of my mouth

The train lurches forward some
As we pick up the pace
We fly past platforms
The people on them click by
Like zoetrope images
The train slows again stops
We all lean forward and count
The days on our fingers
What day is it?
How many more stops?
It should have been warm by now…

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Bathtub Landscapes

Her body is a landscape when she lays in the bath

Her stomach is the plains

Her breasts the rolling hills

The space between a valley

Peninsula arms stretch out

Her fingers play in marshy deltas

Legs stick up as distant mountains

Obscured by mist

 

As she exhales the lands are flooded

Water fills the planes

Trickles into the valley

The marshes disappear and

The peninsula coasts get smaller

High tide

 

She purges the land until she must catch her breath

The floods retreat

The landscape is dry again

Life prospers and grows

Unaware of the flood that will return

When she loses her breath again

 

BATH

 

 

Notes to the Milkman

If you should come and find the front gate faded,
It is because I never painted it white.

If you see the garden is filled with dead flowers,
It is because I did not tend to them.

If you see the mailbox filled with letters,
It is because I never had one address.

If you don’t see the little dog anywhere,
It is because I never had one.

If you should notice that my husband’s car is gone,
It is because I never had a husband.

If you should find no empty milk cartons on the porch,
It is because I never drank them.

If you look around and notice there are no children,
It is because I never had any.

If you peek in the windows and see the house empty,
It is because I never lived here.

You see, I never stopped studying the Graveyard poets.
And I don’t drink milk.

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Watching the Boys at Plaza de Armas

The boys sell water and fresh juice out of shopping carts
Lined in plastic filled with ice
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Their words blend together
Passersby stop to talk to eat some of the ice
They rub it on their arms and hands
One seller stands by his cart his wife and daughter
Sit nearby the child sips a coke and waves
A quick whistle rings out and the boys move
Carts covered and pulled away
The father hurries deeper into the park with his cart
The girls stays with her mama and stroller
Starts to cry in his absence
Her mama holds her hands her another coke
She stops crying after the police on horseback pass
And he returned with his cart
Aguaguagua Jugojugojugo

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Looking Back, Looking Forward

January 20, 2016
On this day, I find myself looking back. To the last time I watched an Inauguration. I remember I was in chemistry class and my teacher turned the lights off. She brought the large projection screen down and fiddled with the remote. A student had to get up and help her put it on the right setting. The room was so dark and I was smiling in it. I felt safe in it. Cocooned in warmth. I wrapped my sweater around me and leaned forward on my desk.
I remember wondering how nervous he was. I remember I didn’t like the poem very much. I remember how it looked cold in DC. I remember the slight rise of veins on his forehead. I remember the class tittering when the lines got messed up. I remember realizing how nervous he was.
I didn’t wonder what the next Inauguration would look like. I wasn’t looking forward. I was trapped in this warm moment. I didn’t know I would be 25 before I saw one again. I didn’t know I would be in New York. I didn’t know how angry they would get. I didn’t know how angry I would get. I didn’t know what it felt like to march between stopped buses and cars. I didn’t know the pain you felt in your arms when you raised a sign for three hours. I didn’t know how easy it was to ignore that pain.
Today I try my best to look forward. I try to remember where I will be tomorrow. And the day after that. And the day after that. We had our plans laid out. Down to almost every day. What are we doing today? What are we doing next week? What are we doing for the next four years? Will it be more than four years? I wonder what our next Inauguration will look like. I wonder who I will be looking at.

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This short prose piece was published in Quail Bell Magazine in 2017.

Kate & David

We met at a whiskey bar in Williamsburg. It was our favorite meeting spot because we could both get to it easily from our apartments. Her from Bushwick, and myself from South Slope. It was strange that we lived in the same city but hardly saw each other. The few neighborhoods that separated our apartments had seemed to grow and swell in the last few years.

“What is her name?” Kate asked. Continue reading “Kate & David”

Rumble Child

I hear the train but I do not see it
At work it whizzes by and I look for it
In bed I hear it as my mind begins to touch dreams
I go to the window and listen again but it is gone
Nothing but the internal hum as it departs
Or is that my body humming longing
For that sound the sound I no longer hear
But I know it is there somewhere in my home
Town it promises movement travel an eternal
Rumble of change or perhaps I miss only its sound
Which I heard from my bed as a child it was comforting
But maybe only in the sense that the world moved
Around me while I lay still

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